2/2022 Updates

There’s so much to update / reflect on.

In this new season of life, it’s a joy to put old identities to rest. To release old cycles, old versions of self, to make room for new beginnings and more evolution.

I say “joy” poignantly cuz yaaaahhh girl is uncomfortable. losing identities is such a mournful process.

This itty bitty piece of me, the strange but constant voice inside of me that NEVER just lays down in peace has surely arrived me into this constant searching and erkingggg for more.

only to be less. Less “identified with”, less judgyyyy. just less, yet more.

and sometimes I don’t think I’ll survive not fighting for my life every day. I’m not sure monotony was quite made for me, but I chase / chased after security.

I don’t know where the toxic addiction to stress ends and where true excitement and passion for life begins.

I recognize that even with all my knowing and articulate dissection, I know Nothing.

and I feel ok accepting, the human that cannot quite function in this safe monotony.

the human who would like security yet strange and heart pounding passion / excitement.

I want to live wholly in all my complexities.