Letters to Oshún: 2024, November 26: Hi my love

Dear Oshún, 

I should have started this email account years ago. I suggested it to Abriel, your Aunty and my very 1st niece to do it for her son / your brother Caziel. She sent all types of pictures there and I've been sitting on our grandest memories for the last 4 years writing to you in journals and other things. I'll make sure to transcribe them so you have access here. 

I hope in whatever Now you're reading this you know that Mama has always been trying her best. Even at my lowest, what I gave you was the best I could in the moment. 

Right now you're in Arkansas - I think! You left yesterday morning at 6am with your Dad. This is the 2nd Thanksgiving you've been to "the South" to visit your Great Great Grandma, PawPaw Ivory's Mom. 

When Dad came to pick you up Sunday night, you cried so hard saying goodbye to me. It took almost 30 minutes for you to finally go. You're really attached to my body, you love hugging me and touching Mama's skin. I love that my body is your first home (in this lifetime). I love knowing how connected we have always been cuz the egg that made you has always existed inside me, since before I was even born. 

Right now, Dad's cousin - and by default your cousin, is cleaning Grandma's (Ipo) couches! You (mostly) are the culprit for their demise. 

I'm so grateful that although me and Dad weren't a match for eachother we became a great family because of the Divine that is You. The miracle, the earthside Goddess that is you my girl.

You are so so confident and brave. So smart, so articulate, so LOVING. 

Anyhow. I love you my sweet girl. 

I hope future You, that knows how to read, always remembers the pure Divine that You Are. 

I love you more than words can articulate. 

- Mama