I asked the Universe if someone Whole was too large of a request

and then i seen this 

My truths feel so ancient in this new day.  

But they’re all i have - anything otherwise becomes a hell too atrocious to live in. 

the discomfort of my latest renewal of self has stretched me in ways i shouldn’t know.  

Its given me even more faith. Even more courage. Even more assurance in the unknown and even more Knowing. 

i know patterns in my loved ones, more than i care to hold - as that knowing leaves me sometimes disingenuous watching a conscious decision of pain trigger a ripple that sometimes becomes a Monstrous wave and being a part of their pain over and over and over and OVER again. 

I’m disingenuous because their kids don’t deserve the pain and selfishness their parents are lost in.

but i guess that means I’m not trusting of the Hope and Love i was able to live in after all the life I’ve been through. 

the knowing has me struggling with taking control of the Universe i create while accepting the Universe of right now. 

i know the stances of truth i make will ripple in their own way, and when the time is right become an ocean. 

Anyhow. This reminded me to just be genuine with self.

i deserve It. 

i am valuable.  

I am the Love i want to experience and i am the Love that the world deserves more of.

-love a day dreaming Fee$