Go figure

He was the first to consciously say “you’re more than enough”

and those words loosened the dam that allowed what followed.

every single one of my romantic interactions have found me to acknowledge the blossoming of my soul in this terrestrial being.  

It’s soul karmatic to hear, in some phrase or another, “you deserve this. You were always the best woman i knew”

I don’t take much directly - as i know my life is a collective force and a collective story of sacrifice.  

But i wonder how i could absolutely Know my value today, have It become a consensus among our city, have It a well known truth in You (in ALL of you) and You still expect me to accept being your 2nd, 3rd or even 4th choice / priority ❗️❗️ 

“You the best thing out here”

BUT not great enough for you to conquer your fears and meet me up here

And still great enough to demean myself while you’re “figuring It out” 

i know my heart is on purpose. And the reason they exist in this expanse of Love i carry is because i didn’t know how to exist any other way. 

I had to sit at the edge of nothingness to allow myself the courtesy of living to sustain the Love i carry in this experience.

and i had to hit the same brick wall multiple times at different intervals to stop believing that this unconditional shit is healthy. 

my treasure from this is knowing i have the capacity to love enduringly and unconditionally. 

to know It, you’d have to do It. And I’ve done It. Time and time again. 

i ain’t really loving them unless I’m behaviorally reflecting that the only way to fuck with me is to meet me Here and nowhere else. 

sad MF truth of evolution.  

And this goes for EVERY love i carry. For my kids, my family. And You MF.