Value

i cried today. My first baby began openly complaining about the burden I am on her life.

my ego spoke of all of the sacrifices I’ve made for her,

but my soul knew, those sacrifices are the reason she values her life more than mine. 

our interactions have never shown her that i value my own life. 

of course I’m investing my time otherwise, but when It came to her, i tried my best to give her everything i could to help her actualize her truest self and purpose no matter how much of Me i sacrificed to deliver her there. 

my tears gave me a smile when i realized this.

all of our discomforts signal back in.

now, the challenge will be, moving away from patterned behavior of picking up the pieces and helping, towards more investment, even in this increment to inner peace, and valued presence.