Meeting new people

letting go of that casual fix i held onto for nearly 2 years, i told myself i was going to date.

and here i am. Enroute to meet a brand new human being with no ties to myself or my family, other than the shared city we live in. 

and i see my ex. Lol.  i don’t naturally see him out anywhere, since ever.

and here i am, finally taking a step toward dating after he broke my heart 4 almost 5 years ago and i see him in the gas station with his soon to be fiancé.

it was crazy being in a moving vehicle and seeing their interactions through the station’s glass paneling. 

It was like watching what my life was 5 years ago. 

It made my heart smile.  

Seeing him committing, and knowing Love is in his objective.

it made my soul smile knowing the promise God has for this life. 

what they have was all i ever wanted at one juncture in time. 

My soul feels at peace. I was so heartbroken, i never would have dreamed of the life i lead today.

It reminded me of the infinite mystery of our one being.

it reminded me to trust.