Always always.

I get to be Love - even when it’s tough. 

And I’ve been doing It more fearlessly than ever lately.  

I’m done sacrificing myself and believing it’s in benefit of others. 

KNOWING i belong, and i DESERVE life to grow love right Now, 

i know i don’t have time to be patient with low frequency relationships. 

being honest with those courtships, romantic and otherwise,  

I’ve freed up pieces of myself that were otherwise consumed with low frequency dilemmas - even though they weren’t mine, they still belonged to me by decree of my character. 

REALLY knowing the Value my presence is alone, i know It deserves the space to keep evolving. 

the space being life liberty and the pursuit of happiness in the waking world

and the space psychologically

- sitting here now, i can move my presence to my subconscious and acknowledge the energy presence of People, in all different relational types to me and to this world - tethered to my consciousness. 

Once i decide to cut someone off psychologically, their presence is still floating around, but unconnected and therefore less obstructive to my psyche energy.

im gna get a bit scattered right now but at least it’s truthful to my present, 

i have to see this man at the boxing gym every time i visit my brother’s sparring sessions. 

His energy is almost hateful. 

And it’s funny because we’ve done nothing directly to amass such an emotion as hate.

ive done a lot of things around him out of insecurity.  

But ive grown out of that. So my attitude is indifference and his is not, it’s a whole bunch of projections of stuff that carry really deep emotional ties that I’m quite taken aback by.

anyhow. This shift into new paradigms of existence real af.

Truth ain’t so bad and I’m a lucky woman to know it’s so deeply.