today I feel different

I am pulling a part every dormant fear and shame resting inside of me.

Clearing every forgotten corner.

Where is this silent frequency hiding.

the one that called this into my reality.

i guess “my” reality is egoic.

and Being. requires a state of acceptance that becomes foreign when you do so much intentional healing and manifesting to outlive the circumstances of your reality.

and that is always my quarrel.

in this current reality, it feels like there is an intersection between being accepting and being completely docile.

in this current reality, someone had to stand up and fight for change to occur.

conflict has always been a means to changing humanity and experience for the collective shift.

and it must be our association with the word “conflict” as regarding to a bad thing.

and the point is there is no “bad” thing. There is just experience.

I feel so completely stricken by ego.

and trying to understand why and how. things of this nature find me.

To current self

things seem bad because you are lost in “I”

your higher self has called things into your life to lead you where you are destined to be.

let the symphony of Being take its course.

do not worry about the ways and means of getting you there.

Bad is a social constraint to experience.

just Be. just Be. Just Be.