Possibly - the Broids

I got a pelvic exam today, and apparently my cervix was pushed out to one side.

the practioner couldn’t feel the fibroid, but suspected, due to my symptoms, and the angle of my cervix, that there was in fact a Broid.

What stops them from growing...

pregnancy 

i feel almost persecuted for not settling.

but i have so much Trust. 

every single time God took me through anything that made me uncomfortable,  

that humiliated an attached sense of “self” or identity, 

i came out more Free than i could have ever dreamed to be.

Universe. I know you’re listening. 

i am going to carry my child in my womb, in THIS lifetime. 

and i am going to care for my body like I am meant to do so. 

im sorry for acting like anything otherwise, being so reckless with myself emotionally, within and outside of this temple of being, but from this point on, 

i will care for this body like it’s going to carry the baby, the soul i am meant to bring into this world.  

A soul that has walked with me lifetime after lifetime, us finding each other, growing our one soul, over and over and over again.

baby, i will know you. And i will treat my body like It deserves you.

you deserve to be here.  

Because our One Soul isn’t done growing yet. 

and it’s up to us to grow the space, the culture, and the history that knows Hope. 

2019 i will care for my body as if i am caring for you. 

i love you! As i love myself.