Today - RYLA Day 1

today felt like absolute magic. The things that came out of me, could have only existed through the discussions held at Cal. The affirmation It gave my soul, and the welcoming the universe granted me once i answered it’s beckoning. 

i finally feel like myself again. Sharing all my secrets, and sometimes dominating that space, so tomorrow I’ll be humble & let my kids lead us to the wisdom that lives in all of our souls.

one of my regular babies was having a personal dilemma.  

Its like breathing sharing wisdom. A wisdom i could only have acquired through drastically and tragically facing endless perils in every waking moment of life. Things I’ve come to accept therein becoming conditioned to handle.

ive run into another seeker, who told me of Eckart Tolle’s interaction with God. He was at the cusp of committing suicide when God revealed himself to him in some way, reminding him of the purpose he has for his Life.

I remember being so heartbroken, by my ex, by people, i was anxious to know heaven and i dreamed of riding an elevator up through the clouds and found myself walking along side God. I was marveled by everything, and at the end of what I seemed to be a tour, i was back at the elevator and tasked to go back down. I sobbed like a child to stay, on my hands and knees, snot running down my nose, i cried with so much agony of the pain of the world and didn’t want to endure it anymore. God communicated with me without words, that’s what It was like the entire duration. He spoke without moving his lips, without facial expressions, gestures, or language, his presence was with my spirit, and He spoke to me silently and i knew i had to go back. He had a plan for me... in fetal position, hugging my knees on the floor of the elevator, i cried the entire way down & woke up in my room in Daly City.