Slowed down.

I finally slowed everything down and now i don’t feel like myself.  

I rocked out January - April and now that I’ve allowed myself to be lazy for 2 weeks i don’t know who i am. 

slowing down doesn’t necessarily mean i was without things to do, It just means i wasn’t completely immersed in my top tier investments. 

I miss the challenge i had turning over as much as i possibly could day in and day out.

i don’t have much leisure time, but dammit, this is why i went back to school. 

My mind isn’t being challenged enough doing graphic work, or working at the office. Of course there is challenge, but it’s not challenging my thought process. the challenge with those things are making sure I’m well rested. 

I’ve come to acknowledge that a large part of my working identity is actualized in Challenge and adversity.

and i need to do a better job of feeling valuable without It. 

I don’t understand how i could have come from being affirmed in the University, even got to sit down with Angela Davis among scholars and PhD students and hold the floor 

and STILL have this challenge of knowing my own value when I’m doing nothing. 

my value shouldn’t be determined by the amount of things i am able to do.