What is Freedom.

i wonder if I’m the only one who follows a ripple, no matter its magnitude, back to its consummating force.

we are but ripples in God’s awakening consciousness.  

can you imagine ripples in the universe. 

Our concept of time is relative, dependent on how big we are in the universe and where we sit in the universe. 

Our perception of a lifetime, dependent on these things.  

When i think of Freedom.  

I remember my dream. i remember praying and asking God for freedom from the pain of this world before going to sleep and dreaming of God’s existence before us. 

& i dreamt of nothingness.

No color, no light, no form, ... 

just floating consciousness. No pain, no love.  

No pressures, no deadlines, no values, no concept of worth.

infinite nothingness, no physical body to be subjected to pleasure or pain, no people to devise structures of hierarchy. 

a sea of darkness. No beauty because there was no conflict. just sameness in the sea of black. 

... 

Freedom does not live without conflict. 

when i think of being free of these conflicts, i wish to be free of life.

but there is nothingness waiting.

id only long to be reborn again, to experience the waves of conflict and beauty through a life of form.

so i guess my new prayer. 

to have my soul known. To be one with God’s soul, and drawn to God’s soul not only in myself, but in all things that have actualized God’s existence within.  

I pray to never grow weary of God’s longing to know existence through form.

To be grateful for the conflicts that live in the same world that makes Love possible.