I hear your voice

I hear him saying my name – almost chanting it

Over and over and over again.

And I recognize the mechanism of its repetition

Because sometimes in a moment of abrupt stillness - I’ll hear my own subconscious repeating the same name or the same words like a patterned disease growing in vibration from the subconscious back row of my being to now the conscious front row.  

When I accept that I’m hearing his voice

It’s like I’ve opened a flood gate and all of his energy of wanting and loving find me and I am submerged in the expanse of his most vulnerable emotions for Me and for Us.

It’s so much Love. So much Hope for Family. So much.

I cry a little knowing that this Love was meant for me.

and I am affirmed a little more in waiting for it just the same.